Post by Ivytail on Jun 19, 2013 3:30:31 GMT
"When you close your eyes, you'll see darkness. But if you keep them closed long enough and concentrate hard enough, you'll see light."
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[ Ivytail ][ warrior ][ fifteen moons ][ pansexual ]
Ivytail
aliases::
Ivy
sex::
male
sexual orientation::
pansexual
hourglass::
fifteen moons [approximately 19 human years]
theme-song::
"Universe" by Ghost Town
voice-actor::
Victor Fuentes
affiliation::
AshClan warrior
voice::
The depths of youth and deceptive innocence beseech the sweetly-toned edges of his voice, twirled into the utter sense of strength, power, and beauty. He has a voice much like a lawn mower, higher in some instances, others scratchy and gravely. It is one that can sooth the mind and easily calm down any being. But whenever anger boils within his veins, his voice slowly begins to carry that thick raspy growl to it, considering he can't control his emotions sometimes. His feelings undeniably evokes and influences the tone and pitch of his voice. For example, when he is sad or depressed, his voice can grow very hoarse and may break a lot.
smell::
His scent is that of freshly crushed, rich pine needles and mint that twirls and strings deftly through the spicy and seductive aroma that the green needles give off. A saccharine scent of wild vanilla lingers behind the initial burst of his wondrous perfume. The perfect blend of an intoxicating and warm fragrance is not to be forgotten, though never overwhelms you.[/ul]
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His coat color is a mix of cream and brown, the two hues sometimes mixing across the male's sleek canvas. He looks much like a wild lynx with the markings that cover him, however, he is not in any way related to the much larger and fiercer predator. The combination of a Siamese coat and point pattern with tabby markings gives you Ivytail, a beautiful, pale-bodied, pointed cat with tabby-striped points in any one of the breed's main point colors. His face has well-defined stripes around his soot-lined eyes, nose, and cheeks. He has spotted whisker pads and an 'M'-shaped marking on his broad forehead. His ears are outlined with the same color as the stripes on the face, but have a paler-colored central area that looks rather like a thumbprint. His long, slender legs are stripes, and his tail is marked with rings of color that extend all the way up the length of his tail.
gaze::
Hazel. An exciting combination of Ivy's inner strength and independence of brown and red, the immense amount of compassion and healing qualities if green, the fluidly and sensitivity of gray, and the intense vitality of blue, and black, the absolute mysterious color with connections of night, secrecy, and inner magic that line the iris. His optics give him a rather exotic appearance, and can be quite intimidating, but also soothing enough to comfort the most upset.
build::
He has a very lanky, emaciated-looking body. Because of this, many people believe him to be weak and brittle. Their opinions are dead wrong. Even though Ivytail may be a bit too skinny, he has some pretty well-trained muscles underneath his coat. His slender form aids him well in running long distances, as he has a lot of stamina built in him. He's also build for speed; a trait he shares with his mother. He shares his genes with his mom, for he also has very good skills in stealth, making it easier for the felidae to go unnoticed. He can easily get irritated whenever someone tells him or even mentions his feminine-like form. Don't let his looks fool you, for the male does pack a good amount of muscle on him.
scars::
A few scars mark body, though the most of them are covered by his luscious pelt. If you know what you're looking for, however, it's pretty easy to find them.[/ul]
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Ivy gives off an intimidating, eerie vibe, and a ghastly appearance does not lessen this little problem of his. He has a wild-like stare and rather strange personality that repels others, making him not too famous or appreciated. Most who have come to know him find Ivy's charm, intelligence, and mysteriousness irreplaceable, however. He is very polite and friendly, having an open mind, active imagination, and enjoyment of listening and learning. Ivy has a strange but typically good sense of humor. To him, the best medicine is laughter.
To begin with, he is extremely sensitive. Situations which are charged with sadness may drive the normally peaceful Ivy into a state of charged sadness, hurt, or even anxiety. He is very perceptive to conflict, and he cannot tolerate it very well. He may tend to hurt to his skin in desperate attempts to counter these consuming feelings of stress, but it only puts him into a deeper, more focused cycle of chaos. While he is in someways very gentle and easy going with others, conversely, he has very high expectations for himself, and can get into vicious battles with himself when he fails to meet them.
Having his manners crammed into him at a young age, he often lets people walk over him and does not care to speak his mind. So he's become something of a pushover. He doubts himself and his abilities, has a low self-confidence, and he can be very worrisome over practically everything. But he tries not to let these things bother him too much. Coming to grips with his extraordinary emotional depth and sensitivity isn't easy for many, and so Ivy could be easily described as misunderstood.
Ivy has an uncanny insight into people and situations. He gets "feelings" about things and intuitively understands them. He can be pretty understanding of others' emotions, and I guess you could say that he is more concerned for theirs than his. This is the sort of thing that others may scorn and scoff at, and Ivy himself does not really understand why they would in the first place. Consequently, he is very protective of his inner self, sharing only what he chooses to share when he chooses to share it. He is a deep, complex individual, who is very private and typically difficult to understand. Ivy holds back a lot of himself, and can be secretive. It is difficult to read the boy, because he knows how to play out a completely different attitude than he really feels.
It's all in the details. The way he stops smiling the instant you aren't looking. How his answers become shorter, his laugh a little bit more forced for every time in a conversation. You'll sometimes catch him with a distant look in his fiery eyes, as if he's staring into the big nothingness that surrounds him. Completely gone. Lost. Alone. You might find that he starts distancing himself from you, making excuses, feeding you with his little covering lies. 'I'm just tired,' he'd say. 'I'm not hungry,' he'd sigh. 'It was the cat,' he'd laugh it off, every single time. You should pay attention to how he starts backing away from you and hiding as much of his skin as possible, hating every inch of it. He won't take your compliments, if so, you'll only get a simple 'thank you' and he will take it all for lies. Self-hatred can be easily mistaken for self-irony, although he says it with a smile on his face. Keep your eyes open for the empty look that follows. Pay attention. Never look away. Because people like him are nearly impossible to spot — the signs that give off bits and pieces of a rough past, a mind full of chaos.
But Ivy is as genuinely warm as he is complex. He holds a special place in the heart of people who he is close to, who are able to see his special gifts and depth of caring. He is concerned for people's feelings, and tries to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. On the other hand, Ivy is a perfectionist who doubts that he is living up to his full potential. He is rarely at complete peace with himself — there's always something else he should be doing to make himself and the world around him better. He believes in constant growth, and does not often take time to sort through his accomplishments. Ivy is likely to never give himself enough credit for the things which he does extremely well. His strong value systems can lead to him being intensely perfectionist, and causes him to judge himself with unnecessary harshness.
He has an unusually deep will of caring for those who are close to him, and he's likely to show his love and appreciation through actions, rather than words, even if he can be pretty skilled with them at times. He is a very passionate individual, but he'd prefer to keep displays of affection where other eyes aren't probing at him. Ivy loves attention and affection, so be sure to give him a lot of it if you're enamored by him, because of out sight means out of mind. Share thoughts with him and try to connect with him at an emotional level, and, most of all, never fake with Ivy. He can see lies a mile away.
Ivy is easy to take home for the night, and it is much harder to form romance with him. He is very sensitive and mostly feels lonely and unfulfilled, but he would rarely let someone know this. You know that he feels safe around you when conversations with him start to lean toward his own feelings and experiences, because those subjects are rarely featured in discussions with Ivy. Sensitivity and affection is the best way to appeal his emotions and form a close relationship with him. As for his negative side, he is jealous and unhealthily possessive, and would rarely let someone completely control him. When it comes to someone he really cares about, though, he is a bit gentle. He is loving and devoted, even if he does hold a on a tad too tightly. It all goes back to the darker side of him, filled with insecurities and worries.
Ivy is an individual is gifted in ways that others are not. A rare find, you could say. Like everyone else, however, he has his flaws. That's just how life is. A big pile of good and bad things. The good things don't always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. Life is not too easy for Ivy, but he is very capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement.[/ul]
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• Flowers — He enjoys their lovely colors and their intricate design, but, ultimately, the smell. The ones he favors the most are vanilla. He finds their smell absolutely intoxicating... but in a good way, of course.
• People who can make him laugh — He adores to laugh and loves the Clan mates who have a similar sense of humor to his. He greatly enjoys comedy and having a good time.
• Affection — If you're adored by Ivy, be sure to give him a lot of attention, because he's a selfish creature, possessive, and gets very jealous very quickly.
dislikes::
• Betrayal — He's had enough of this and he knows how much it hurts. Seeing people betray him is something he can't handle very well and can cause him to break down or get anxiety attacks. He has many other reason why this may happen, but this is one of the ultimate ones.
• Bugs.
• Rumors — He can't stand it when he's around people who love to spread rumors and gossip about people and their secrets or things they may have heard. These people can easily get on his nerves and sometimes trigger his bipolar side.
• Deep water.
habits::
• Scratching. He scratches when he has anxiety. It gets kind of bad sometimes, and can leave pretty deep marks, but nothing too serious.
• Pacing. This happens when he is under emotional stress.
strengths::
• Hearing people's problems. — He'll always be that one person who will understand what you're going through in your life and what you do to make yourself feel better. He'll always try his very best to help people with their troubles, no matter how difficult the situation sounds. If he has something to do to make someone happy again and make the problem better, he'll do whatever he's required to, no matter the consequences are.
• Running — His lanky, emaciated-looking silhouette helps him run for miles and miles, considering he has much stamina built inside of him. It's a trait he shares with his mother. He holds this trait proudly.
• Pulling pranks — There are days where Ivytail can make the best prank ideas, and will normally be a very bubbly tom if he thinks someone is in need of a good prank and laugh.
• Keeping secrets — Many cats have spilled out his secrets to other wolves in the past. They especially spilled his secrets to their friends, and ever since then, his old rogue gang have been telling him rude things and treating him unfairly because of the rumors they had heard of. Ivytail knows it's a wrong thing to do, and that's why he vows to himself that he will always keep others' secrets, for he's quite familiar with the pain of betrayal and broken promises.
• Making people laugh — If he knows you too well, then he will surely know how to make you laugh, and if he doesn't, he'll find a way. He loves seeing Clan mates being positive and ecstatic, rather than anxious and depressed. He knows the pains of such feelings, for he gets that way far too often. He's now waiting for that one person who would try and make him laugh as well, but all the people who have tried to claim his heart have failed somehow.
• Honesty — He knows how to be truthful to others and will rarely ever lie. There might be days where he doesn't feel like spilling truths to his Clan mates, and this may be because he has a lot on his mind and can't concentrate, or sometimes because he feels upset over something.
strengths::
• Describing his problems — He isn't one of those felines who can easily explain what is on his mind or how he feels. It is a very difficult thing for Ivytail to do, and he will sometimes succumb to the option of keeping his emotions all to himself. If he feels like he wants to talk about his problems to you, you're definitely going to have to be completely attentive and very caring for the young felidae, because the littlest of actions can make him think that who ever he is talking to can't wait until he shuts his mouth. These feelings can make the lad feel very depressed and anxious. If you want him to open up to you and give you his heart, you're going to have to encourage her to do so with calm, loving actions, for he is not quick to tell you everything, and can easily lie to get out of any uncomfortable situations.
• His temper. — His bipolar side is his ultimate weakness and forever will, for he struggles on keeping it in control. He may cuss here and there, but don't be surprised, for he does it on accident. There are going to be some times where he'll talk back as well, and not in a nice way, because he sure knows how to make up some rude comments when given good time. His comments will sometimes even leave one silenced, which is usually his aim when arguing with another. He can barely, if not ever, control the demon that tries to escape and control him ever so often.
• He's very emotional — Ivytail's been like this for a while now and he's starting to realize that this is one of his greatest weaknesses. He'll believe anything he hears about himself and will try to be that one perfect person everyone wants him to be. However, sometimes he just can't. The littlest of rude comments could cause Ivytail to feel like his heart has been ripped from his chest. It damages him more than you could ever imagine.
• Trusting people — He has a good deal of difficulty in doing this. He rarely ever sends his Clan mates his complete honesty and trust, for he doesn't want to experience anymore heartbreak.[/ul]
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• Lilacblossom; Mother; Deceased
• Duskleap; Father; Living
• Littlekit; Sister; Deceased
history::
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Ivytail is deeply afraid to allow anyone to weasel into his life. The relationship he had in the past was packed with heartaches and deception, and the painful experiences led the young tom to grow quite tired in trusting others to always stay by his side. Ever since then, he's been forcing himself to not grow fond of any feline, and turns down any offer for a relationship.
crush::
He hasn't had any crushes and it will probably stay this way. He's afraid of someone catching his eye, for he is afraid of being betrayed again.
friends::
Ivytail hasn't bonded with anyone in the Clan yet
best friend::
Ivy doesn't trust anyone enough to call them this.
enemies::
None, and Ivy wishes to keep it this way.[/ul]
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